24.2.09

Energizer

Sometimes I don't like me
More often, I don't like being me.
Think about that for a second.

But
That doesn't stop anyone from living day to day now does it?
Well, it does occasionally
But there are many sayings about that.
Anyway
That has nothing to do with anything.

To quote from a song by Lazlo Bane:
"I can't do this all on my own, I'm no superman"

I'd like to examine exactly what he could mean by that.
(Note: I did not say what he meant, I can not begin to decipher why he wrote that song)

Clearly, the obvious message is there,
That life is full of things that no one person alone can handle.
Such is the nature of life
We are not solitary creatures
We are meant to have mates
Friends, colleagues, whatever you want to call them
Basically...other people.
We all sort of fumble around life...together
And possibly, just possibly, we might get through it.

Obvious message.
If that wasn't obvious to you
Well then
Kudos.

Anyway.
What else could he have meant by that?
Just that line alone.

"I can't do this all on my own"

Not -all- of it no.
But a significant portion.
As much as one can take.
As much as one can take and deal with.
As much as you're willing to put up with.
But

"I'm no superman"

We don't have superhuman powers.
We don't have the ability to read minds or blow up shit
More importantly
We don't have the ability to bite off more than we can chew.
Well actually we do
We just can't chew it at all.
We get stuck
And then we feel stupid.

I could go in and examine the nature of what superman represents
but that's not important here.
He's a mythical creature
A force of the unnatural
Technically he might actually be able to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders.
It's possible.

But we can't.
As much as we believe we can
We can't
We can try
But ultimately, we will need help.
It's not to say that we're weak or incapable
Just that your strength is not limitless
So yes, you will need help.

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Why'd I pick that specific quotation?
I don't know.
I rarely ever do.
It got stuck in my head the minute I sat down
Ergo, I must write about it.

I said before that I don't like being me
I meant it
Not because I don't like the things that I do
I happen to think I'm quite a talented individual
And intelligent
A bit too much sometimes.

I don't like being me because
well that's not important.
This is not a pity party.
This is an awakening.

I've spent the last few weeks being considerably lazy off my ass
or more appropriately on my ass
Because
While I know I'm no superman
I know that I am a man
And being a man has responsibilities
Responsibilities mean time
And a decent amount of effort.
That's not to say that I don't want to be responsible
Because I do
Being responsible makes you feel better about life
But
It's not something you look forward to once you've dealt with it.

...Or maybe it is.

18.2.09

Zuuuto.

And now a song
Written by yours truly.
To be cross-posted on my guitar blog
soon as I figure out chords and stuff.
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The line between love and hate
Is thin and sometimes dreary
The line between like and love
is fun but makes you weary
The line betwixt like and hate
Is full of fiery passion
But the line between hate and dislike
is a trainwreck waiting to happen.


I dislike people
But I hate dumb people
The difference gets hard to see
You can say what you want
But I don't give a damn
About what you might think of me

I dislike talking
But I hate when I'm walking
Some fucker says "'ey my man"
No I don't have change
Get the fuck out my way
And no I don't want to shake your hand

See I don't mind the homeless
I just like my alone-ness
It's not a thing of your or my "kind"
I just dislike people
Of all shapes and sizes
And I don't want to waste my time.

Because I dislike you
And the things that you do
You might think it's a hateful song
But that's really not true
I'm just saying what I think
And you're a liar if think I'm wrong

So I dislike this
And I hate all of that
I could go on and on
But there's really no point
Cause you don't give a shit
and these lines are way too long

See I don't mind opinions
they're a lot like minions
You should keep them just for yourself
But no matter how I say it
You'll just keep on talking
Until I think about shooting myself

So what if its mean
I don't see why you'd care
It's not like I ruined your day
We're all just people
And we all need love
I just wish you'd just go away.

---

Thank you.

17.2.09

Lemon Sandwich Cookie

If you've never done so
I believe you should check out this webcomic
SinFest
And no, it's not as devious as it sounds.
The artwork is nice
Especially considering that he updates -everyday-
And I mean that.
Never takes a break
and it's always good.

I don't know how he does it
But he manages to incorporate philosophy,
religious concepts, sociology and a whole slew of other things
To combine and make this epic storyline.
It's really innovative.

Mostly, I like the idea that the characters converse with all the major deities
Just like they're regular people, with exceptional powers.
I really wonder what kind of mind this guy has.
I am constantly surprised
and put at ease
just by reading.

It says so much
and yet so very little.
I'm sure you could sit there and try to analyze the comparison of God and the other religious leaders, or you could just enjoy the fact that Slick gets no love from 'Nique
and God loves puppets.

The comic is made of pure awesome.
Sorry, but it is.
I really don't see how anyone could disagree with that.
No, I mean really.
You'd have to be one snobby stuck up sonuvabitch to not appreciate it.
And I mean that.
Even if you don't like it as much as other ones
You can at least appreciate it.
(But it'd be better if you liked it.)

That goes to say a lot about religion in general
But we will not discuss that
...probably never will.
It's just not that interesting to me anymore.
There was a time a few years ago where I'd speak all night long on it.
But since then I've grown to accept my beliefs and the knowledge
that everyone is entitled to their own system of beliefs.
Not to say there's no point in trying to convince people otherwise
But you do have to ask yourself "Why?"
Why would you want to change someone's system of belief.
If it's to prove a point
Then you're probably doing it wrong.
If it's because you really feel it would help them out in life
And/or they seem to be struggling with their current lifestyle/mentality
Then by all means, knock yourself.
But choose your battles wisely.
Parents and Old people have been teaching that lesson for ages
And of course it's not until you get older that you realize just how true that statement is.

Age brings experience
Experience includes a lot of shit
-A lot- of shit.
...sometimes literally.
Hey, you're only human
You have bowels.
Get over it.

Age should also bring understanding and comprehension
Although we often find ourselves stuck in our ways
Because we're comfortable with it
And we're not entirely sure we have the capability to be otherwise.
Such is life.

Even if you are old
Or middle aged
Or even in your twenties
You should still broaden your horizons every now and then
Relax a little
No one's penalizing you for anything
As long as it's legal, you're fine.
And I'm fairly certain reading and enjoying a comic is legal.
...For now it is anyway.

So give it a try
Read SinFest
Enjoy.

5.2.09

Surprise.

I'm not actually in a mood to write anything at this moment
I was a few days ago
But then laziness kicked in.
It's very powerful, laziness.
Sometimes you just have to ask
Why fight it?
Laziness can kick your ass
Or
Considering the very nature of laziness
It can provide a comfy cushion from the ass-kicking
that you get in "important" life.
"Important" life is serious.
"Important" life is demanding.
Laziness doesn't really give a damn.

Hard to fight that sometimes
...make that all the time.

The downside of laziness
is the feeling that you should be doing something more
...important.
Laziness leads down some bad roads
Sadness, Depression, Anger, Insecurity, Pants-lessness
(Argue if you want to, but the inability to wear pants is a sure sign of laziness)
To be fair
Not all pant-lessness is bad.
Can't have sex through pants
...well, maybe through a skirt and a zipper...
but a skirt isn't pants.
I digress.

My dearest friend
My worst enemy
My loyal ally
My bitter nemesis

Laziness,
You are all these things and more.

To you I would write an ode
Yet, you'd keep me from expressing my true feeling
You're a crafty one
Yet oh so very simple.
Perplexing
Yet so obvious.

I don't understand you
Yet, I don't want to.

Why do you torment me laziness?
Why do you love me laziness?
Why do I keep you so close?
How have you managed to win me over?
I don't know.
I never do.
You always win.

Laziness, you are superior
Yet
You feel inferior.
I am confused...and at ease.

Surely
Surely there is victory to be found
Surely somewhere there is a place you cannot touch
There must be.

I will find it
I must find it
...I won't find it, will I?
Because you win, laziness.
You win again.

...You always win.

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