For many years I have considered myself a Taoist.
I've read my fair share of books
Literal interpretations
I've meditated
I've done many things to further my understanding
or rather, drop my knowledge
To embrace the Tao and what it means.

I'm sure I will always be a taoist
In the way that I interpret it to be
But I will admit it has been a while since I've done any sort of
Self-Awareness techniques.
With all that has been going on in my life in the past few years
I find myself not with a lack of time
but a lack of effort.
We've already established that I am chronically lazy
But I should be able to factor that in.
That's not to say that I have abandoned my beliefs.
No no, far from it.
I will always believe that Life is meant to happen
And that we can not hope to control circumstance
but rather to embrace it and move forward.

I do not repel God or any other deity, they're all respectable and powerful.

I sit here trying to justify myself because recently a book was delivered to my house.
And though I am not the owner of said book, I find myself compelled to read it.
Which I find very odd for myself.
Not because I don't like to read
I'm not illiterate, you know
(despite the popular belief)
But rather because this book is written by a man who's other books are entitled
"Full Catastrophe Living"
and "Coming to our Senses"
And the back of the cover talks about how it's sold over 750,000 copies
and various other bits of useless information.
That's a bit of a turn-off to me.
I do enjoy good, enlightening literature
But I abhor when it's overplayed or overhyped.
Yet, again, I find myself compelled to read this book.
Why? Because it talks of Mindfulness Meditation.
A somewhat Buddhist perspective on how to pay attention to the moments that you're in
And how to live and accept that these moments are what you live for.

I find this a very compelling subject.
And the thought occurred to me
Maybe it's time that I lift myself of what I thought I knew
and discover new meanings.
Maybe I should explore the ideals of Buddhism and the many other eastern religions that have managed to stay around for all these years.
Perhaps I should compare
Perhaps I should explore
I feel that I need to.

My life has required that I have patience
And that is something that I've learned
I've also learned the value of inaction
Or Not-Doing.
But perhaps it's time for me to discover the bounty of
Acting
Living
Embracing the moment for what it is.
I've certainly had my fair share of opportunities
And I know there are only more to come
But often I left fear of the unknown rule me
Just like everyone else.
But it is my desire to not be like everyone else.
I am not everyone else
I am a person
With a name
and a history
and my own way of life.
I will continue to live and blaze my own paths.

Which brings to mind the title of this book
"Wherever you go, there you are."

I am in love with the simplicity of the title.
I am in love with simplicity.
Love is simplicity
Love is simple.
I am simple.